i'm paranoidd. (;

foooor liivvv! (:

LOVEYOUBBY. ♥

it's you & your future husband ;]

mandy always tells the truth; even when it's hard to do. ♥

the music video for mandy makes me cry. theyre sofa king young. NOSTALGIAAA.
anyway. my day was boring. jonas'd it up a bit. hoping that front row tickets to a jb concert AREN'T 800 dollars, haha. (;
it's really hot heree. i wrote jonas :) on my hand with eyelinerr! yeah im cooool.
uh. somebodddy cancelled their plans with mee. thanks, youre sofa king nice. D:
gaaaaah. uhh, i have twooo youtube channels you should watch / subscribee. (:
FIRST CHANNEL;
daze&olive.
SECOND CHANNEL;
olivia alaine.
^i love both channels; theyre heckaa funny :]
so erm. oh yeah! i go on vaycayy on the 2ndd (this sunday) till the 7th (friday?).
i'll have my laptop / ipod touch, so i'm still gonna be online. if youre my friend, ask where im goingg(:
i'm gonna miss talking to some people 'cuz i won't be online as much but it's okay. :]
uh, so commentt ! plz? 'kay.
PS. my house is a jonas party 24/7. yeahh. my mom & i sing year 3000. &watch JB videos allll day. yeah. and my mom thinks joe is cute. yeahhh! suck it. yeah. slap a hoee; bang a jo-bro. yeah, that's my motto. yeah; BANG IT! just banggg it. yeah. JONAS PARTY, BITCH. or should i say hoe? *slaps you* *bangs a jobro* HELLLL YEAH. :D xD

i am unaware that im a nuisance. ;]

i have nothing to blog about. ):
i may update later. but i just want to say that im infatuated with JB. kaay? yeah.
BYEEEE<3456

baby, you turn the temperature hotter;; [[:

i've come to a conclusionn!
♥ i'm gonna be samantha jonas & liv is gonna be olivia jonas. (:
we'll be sister-in-laws. i'm marrying Joe; she's marrying Nickk.
go to her blog; she made me an amazing sign so i love herr xD http://oliveisamazing.blogspot.com/
shes so cool;. i love her and i owe her one for sure.
I NEED SOME JOBRO STUFF NOW & ALSO TO GO TO A CONCERTT. xD
gotta wait till the next tour.
okay, what should i buy on itunes? camp rock or JB cd? i think ima go with the CD. :]
'kay bye. peace, love, jonas; BITCH! :D
xx, samantha jonassss. [[:

now i'm done with superstars // *

PAUSE THE MUSIC ON THE SIDE && WATCH THIS. :]
yeah, i guess joe was crying;; but it was an amazing performancee <3 go joe. &+ stay strong. you're too good for camilla bitch. xox.

VIDEO WAS REMOVED?! WTF.COM xD

you're much better. ♥

I feel so badd for Joseph Adam Jonas. Camilla Belle broke up with himm. &he cried during the concert. Poor baby. ♥ i guess she really wasn't much better than Taylor Swift. ): but I love the song. it's absolutely gorgeous,. the Jonas Brothers don't have muchh luck with girlfriends, haha. Niley was NOT a good match. Jamilla (xD) was not really too good. Jaylor (xDD) wasn't the best. &i didn't even know Kevin was with someone till he was engaged! so yeah. I feel like they shouldn't really be dating at this point in their lives. okay, that came out wrong. They cann date, but not so exclusively. you know? Not so serious. they have to find someone MUCH BETTER. so yeah. i'm donee. ♥
i wanna fight with youu, tear up the sky with you; you're much better. :]]

then i see it's a pimp & his crack whore. (;

the party was amazing; we stayed up till 5:20 in the ayem. :]
so now im trying to hype up on caffeine. good, rightt?
so i have a story. i havent been hungry at all lately. i've been having lots of ice breakers mints xD
well, my mum was like, 'i don't like this not eating thing.' and i'm thinking 'wtf?! im not anorexic!'
haha. well, it's not funny. but, ya know. i know i should eat but i'm not hungry. that's all. :]]
also, like the new blog title? explicit. ;] *gets another mint*
i just ate dinner btw. so don't be like 'EATTTTT.' hahh.
im really sad that nevershoutnever and cobra starship are popular noww.
i honestly dont want owl city to be mainstream. its hecka annoying. owl city's always been MY thing.
and alsooo. i love my real life friends, but online > real life. i'm sorry if you don't feel that way.
I DO. :] i feel like the internet gives you more choices. i am more open with my e-friends.
i am myself and can relate to them. i'm myself around my real life friends but it's different.
thought i'd say that. so yeah. comment plz. <3

you're so gay & you don't even like boyss. ;]

heeeeeeey. gotta post quickk. (:
okay heres what i did today;
got up. went online. got ready for a partyy. talked to liv&&em,. now i'm heree.
i havent eaten at all today. not really hungry. okay, i srsly have to go. byeee.<3
comment even though i barely posted. xD

if my heart was a house, you'd be home.

^omfg expect lots of owl city lyrics in my titles . <3
that song makes me teary-eyed. no lie. i'll be singing it and i'll choke up and have to stop singing. xD anywaaaay!
i would def post pix on here but im on my other computer and i'm not supposed to put pix on it. so possibly soon. i dont knoww. !
so last night i stayed up late-ishh. talked to liv-yuhh.<3 listened to music & watched food network. twittered.(: and other shizzle. so yesterday i got a small whiteboard at the dollar store and there's blue plastic around the edge and its coming the fuck off ! ughh. but i did write the lyrics to dear vienna on it. not all of them. but a lot. i'ma erase it so i can write the lyrics to meteor showerr. omg my friend just called and we havent talked in forever. awkward. ): hah. owl city will make it better x]. so erm shit (:. FUCK YOU BY LILY ALLEN ! i love lily allen so muchh . she holds a place in my heartt. xD so errrm .ima go. but ilyyy<3 commentxx

i wanna take a ride on your disco stick. ;D

^THAT WAS TO OLIVIA. xD complete the lyric, hoee. <3
okay okay today i went shopping and im zonkedd.
yesterday i got mac lipglass. (:
omfg amazing. its a tadd sticky but i love it a looot.
im too tired to type much other than i love you if you read my blogg .
and erm. i had the best pizza eveer today.
& pix may be up on the blog soon of meeh. <3
liv, i need to liame you my pic. xD
okaay? okay. (:
lovehugskissesxox.

add it up like a mathematician, i wanna be your new addition. +

you're so flyy, no lie, and you know this (ballin')!
o hai. so change of plans todaay . (: im going shopping with emily! omg, ima go to a MAC store for the first time eveeeer! liek omfg. em's gonna be here around 3, and its currently 2:36. so omg. here's my shopping goals;

-makeup! (duh)
-a pair of shorts<3
-flipflops; (preferably black or greyy.)
-hollister gift card for my friend's bday(: <3
-random accessories*
-nerd glasses! (optionaal.?)
-graphic teeeee.

so yeah. and more stuff cuz im bringing lotsa monaay . xD erm i may post pix later of my outfit today cuz its beastlyy. :]] and my hair looks sooo good. omfg its 2:38 right noow! (; so excited . i'll post everything i gett later ! and ermmm . i dont know what other stores will be in this mall cuz i've never been there. but theres defff a MAC, AE, hollister, aero, etc i thinkk.:] and those are the best stores. so fucking happy. (: emi&i are the fucking babes! <3 luv u, em. we always come up with ways to go places together. my mum's a suckerr for my her mum talking her into it,. so we get away with shitt.(": im expecting to talk to livvy when i get homee. cuz i want to talk to that skankhoe. ;] (jk, love you, olive!). so, not to be braggy but, i look freaking boss today! BOSSS!
<3 hehe. and my makeup just looks fantabulous. makeup is my love. besides owl city.(: yes im obseesssedd. <3* dont be hatin'. [: OMFG RTHU3. i hate it when people hate on owl city.! iim like fuck you hater. you wouldnt know good music if it hit you in the ass. xD well, its true. owl city's so fucking closee to my heart and i will always stand by adam young 100%. okay enough owl city talk. 15 more minutessss. and if youre wondering why im so excited, its because i dont go shopping often. and this week im going twice in a week ! cuz tomorrow im going out with my aunt and my mum. omfg ima be broke after this week. x] well, its truue ! my lip gloss is poppin' right noww. (: fuck, gotta go. love & shit. comment xx

i will disguise myself as a sleeping pill & descend inside of youu. [:

i'm over you because owl city will always be in first place.
this music is like my lover. i love it more than you ever will and that's why owl city is always number one! my heart is a compilation of owl city songs and pizza. :] remind me to listen to owl city when i'm sad. fuck you; i have adam young.<3

love me, love me; say that you love me. <3

o hai. i woke up an hour ago. my mum is making me some toast with peanut butter downstairs. :]] yum. im listening to owl city. if i could marry anyone, it would be adam young. (adam young = owl city, fyi.) he is sooo amazing! owl city makes me feel 248645 emotions at once. like, here's an example; dear vienna. omfg best song of all time! NO LIE. (click here for dear vienna.) anyway i feel like i wanna cry and be happy at the same time. i do have memories with the songs but theyre amazing. i still have crusty morning stuff in my eyes. (: i also realised that i have an obsessive personality! yay, a diagnosis. xD oh & guess what! i think im happy for once. [: im a fool. ;] so ima go on deviantart or something. comment & shit,. love love love. <3

i'm a little bit insecure from all of this mistreatment.*

i don't want to have to turn to people for help anymore.

all this time, i've had to turn to someone for help. and i'm not leaving that someone anonymous. emi, i love you more than life. you helped me through everything. yeah, we got mad at eachother A LOT. in the end, that just helped me realise how much my life was affected by him. we fought because i was so head-over-heels and you knew it wouldn't work. em; i can't thank you enough. literally. anyway. i always turned to emi. i want people to turn to me now. no one understood me through it all. but i want someone to turn to me and i can say 'i know exactly how you feel.' i WILL know exactly how they feel. i'm honestly always thinking of him. STILL. but i don't want to love him. i want to hate him and miss him at the same time. i want my dreams to come true. i know they won't but it doesn't matter. i want to feel happy and in love at the same time because i've never felt that. (thinking of you by katy perry is making me want to cry... hard.) it's not my fault that, like, half of the songs on my ipod remind me of you. i ripped out my heart and then i carved your name into it. a constant reminder that i'll never have you. i don't need you, i just want you. you're not healthy for me. xx

you said move on, where do i go? xo

i don't want you to be another boy that i just get over.

but i think that's all you'll ever be and i'll have to get over you.

thanks for the memories, though.

i think i can get over it. i'm not gonna go through my life with a heartache.

<3

guess what?! i am not a robot! ♥

thank you, jul. i love the song you sent mee♥

so i def neeeed to update. i'm better than i was before.

not exactly doing perfect .but im okay.

i've been listening to a lot of love songs and owl city lately.

i can relate to sooo many of the songs. i don't know if that's good or bad.

i'm defff not a robot. im way too emotional to be a robot. x]

sometimes i really want to cry. i don't know how i feel today.

this song is making me emotional xD

(i am not a robot by marina and the diamonds)

im watching degrassi! :] yay mee. erm i changed my twitter url.

twitter.com/sammydarling

i want to talk to liv! we havent talked in freaking ages. ):

okay, comment plzz. lovelove. xx

dear vienna, are you singing?

^my favourite song of alltime.

im so depressed. i want to crawl into a hole and never come out.

i want to cry. HARD. i hate my life. i just want to go somewhere else.

where people appreciate me. bye. comment plz. *

ten thousand lightning bugsss. <3

im so fucking tired and shit. i dont really feel like functioning ):

i just wanna sleep but it 11:45 AM. so it's not time for bed yet x]

i have no clue why im so tired but i feel like ima die. x]

pukepuke. ugh. my head hurts a little bit.

whats going onnn? bahah. kbye<3

drop your socks ---> and grab your mini boombox.*

ohai. twitter is being dead tonight. like srsly.

well, not dead. but not alive either!

im feeling a bit crappy tonight, but i'm emotionally well.

okay, not exactly. but im okay. :]

erm ! i'm super bored and im drinking a bottle of water.

i feel like i could staay up all night.

which i won't do! haha, it's really draining.

it makes youu wanna stay up really late allll the time .

which is BAD. because then you get super tired and grouchy.

haha (: im watching spongebob. wow. just wowwowooww.

i want a macbook but i dont have enough moneey yet ):.

ugh! im getting a bit closer. but im impatient so stfu!

well, its really hot. kbye ily. xD

hot damnn, that girl's on fire (:.

OMG TELLSECRET. that is some funny shit.

you have to go there to understand.

but tellsecret is broken right now xD

people (coughMEcough) overused it. D:

twitter.com/tellsecret = love.

one of the best things on twitter ,if not the best :]].

like an introvert, i drew my overshirt... :]]

truth (: i'm a freaking introvertt. i knew that, bbyz. ;]

check, check, one, two. alright, heregoesnothin ♥

^fuck, i love that song! :D

im really hungry. i got to talk tuh libby. she makes me feel better.

cuz remember my emo posts? well, screw them :]. thanks ,liv. ily! <333

anyway im hungry. i want to learn to draw anime.

errrrrr .! oh boyy, not much to blog about.

my shorts have hello kitty on themm (:

I KNOW YOU'RE ANXIOUS BUT YOURE RUNNING YOUR MOUTH LIKE YOURE FIVE YEARS OLD AGAAAIN! hahah. same song as the title. (:

neverfuckingshoutnever! :]]]]] christofer drew's a cutiee.

i reeaallly want a livelavalive bracelet. bahahaha.

erm that's all . kbye.

in the night, i hear 'em talk. ♥

i feel like i'm gonna puke. help me? someone?

I AM SO FUCKING NAUSEOUS RIGHT NOW.

read my last post for details plzzz. ]:

this feeling's tearing me up (here we go now)!

i don't think he's right for me anymore. but does that mean i'll ever stop? no. ):

OH MY GOD, IN TEN SHORT MONTHS, I FELL APART. i completely fell apart.

my stomach is starting to get nervous pains. i don't care if i get you, I DON'T WANT YOU WITH HER.

my stomach realllly hurts now. i have to let you go. why can't i? why do you mean so much?

i never tried so hard to get someone out of my head. i miss you .

goodbye. ): you hurt me real bad. fuck, i cried last night. i'm gonna miss you. i loved you, in the past tense.

i don't know what's right &+ what's real anymore. //

today i spent all day watching peach girl, which is this anime. :]

i watched all 25 episodes. :D i was crying. it was like a cartoon soap opera, haha.

i was like 'OMG SAE'S A BITCH!' & 'toji, come back!!' & 'kairi is right for momo!' & 'momo, don't be a bitch!'. but it all ended up good in the end.

i also have other stuff to talk about, but i don't want my posts to be depressing.

but before i get serious, i'd like to say that i'm watching 'family matters'. steve urkellll<3

okay, serious noww. okay, so, on my old blogs, most of my posts were depressing and dark.

well, i think it may come back. D':<

let me tell you the storyyyy.;

okay ,there's this guy i used to like a lot. he was a real sweetheart & a stunner too. i thought he really liked me but then he started to ignore me. i always came on too strong but i denied it and acted like he didn't mindd. well, he did. i scared him, i think. he thought i was a needy puppy. well, he made me feel horrible. he started liking another girl. the next thing i know they're going outt. everyone thinks they're the school's best couple. except for me. i see right through it. anyway that's beside the point. i fooled myself. i said that i was over it. i thought i was .but i'm not, goddamnit! I'M A LOVESICK PUPPY, KTHNX! i can't fucking take it anymore! how hard do you think it is? he's going out with this bimbo and i'm stuck here not over it. i really thought he liked me. we'd talk a lot and i thought he really did like me. i knew that i liked him. i still know that but i don't know why! why do i love that bastard!? he's a playerr! i can't get over it. i can't deal with the fact that we're over, and we never even officially started. ): god, help me. and when i say help me, i mean get those two away from each other and make him love me.

well, i guess i'm done. please comment. goddamnit, you all better comment.

xx trainwreck (that's my new name.)

shut up and put your money where your mouth is! :$

sometimes we have to smile like we mean it till we really do.

and i think now i really do. :]

EDIT (7/15/09 - 10:45 pm); i dont mean it and i never did. i'm not happy.

i am floating away; lost in a silent ballet.*

OWL CITY'S NEW ALBUM IS LOVELYYY. (:

ocean eyes is gonna save my life. :]

okay, i am obsessed and proud. i've been obsessed with tons of things and i think this is the first time i've been proud. :D

today was a pretty good day. here's all about it;;

i woke up and ocean eyes was on iTunes! then i got up, had a corn muffin and went online. AIMed emi & blogged. watched tv, etc, etc. shower. marathon of first 48 ! dinner. joined owlcitymusic.com. now it's now. (: my nail polish chipped. ): oh well, aunt beck will repaint it:]

errrm . my tummy hurts a bit. no one is on AIM. yyuucckk. uh. about the post earlier. you can sorta disregard it. well, not exactly. i wasn't in a great mood about certain things. haha. just sorta forget it; it doesn't matter. :] so comment & love. okay, goodbye(:

i never thought i'd fall for you as hard as i did .;

i keep you in my mind, and i try to keep you out of my heart.

i don't think it's working, but i can pretend.

i'm the king of the world , on a boat like leo. :]

I'M ON A BOAT. k, not really. but i was bored and decided tuh post.

i don't have anything to say. i want softserve really badly.

i want someone to have a chat with. if you're reading this, definitely talk too me! (:

ooh ooh! . erm i dont know. comments & love are wanted. ;]

you the fuckin' best. (:

^that's for the three girls that read my blog; liv, jul & em.

so many good memories this weekend. i love my familyy .

we;re freaks when it comes tuh listening to music & karaoke, but i like itt that way. :]

right now i'm reading liv's VERYY LONG blog post. bwaahahah.

i'm also feeling a tad hyper and artsy. which is good. haha.

i'm aiming em tooo ! i miss jul ):. anyway this weekend was the bombb .

so much fun in the car w/ jul, and so much fun w/ the whoooole family at the party .

and then going swimming with em and tim (:. my life is so good right now. *knock on wood*

i really wanna read the harry potter series now, 'cuz em's fam is kindof making me wanna. xD

imm also watching dora, which i do on every weekday morning! :D

i just thought i'd post 'cuz it's been a few days. hope everyone's doing well. love&kisses. <3

if i could walk on water; if i could tell you what's next ♥

new fave songg ; come on get higher by matt nathanson.

excited for tomorrow / sunday. (: ilovemyfamily.

and basically my life is being perfect. *knock on woood!*

aiming my bff; we havent talked in foreverr. )':

missing livv. ): e-bffs for life! :D

thinking of hair straightening techniques for tomorrow :].

watching shit on youtube. xD

waiting for someone to update twitter. ahaha .:]

i need to paint my toenailss. red fo' sho'.

needs to go shopping soon. (urban outfitters / mac cosmetics / aero / american eagle / abercrombie / claires plz?)

and basically, JULIA IS SLEEPING OVER TOMORROW NIGHT. :]

first sleepover ever at my house 'cuz my mom's a crazy neat freak. but i love herr. (:

^she sent me to my room today but i was throwing a temper tantrum hah.

so fucking excitedddd. ! no liee. x3

and erm, i dont have much tuh say.

so see ya. i'll blog tomorrow befo' my cousin's partyy, & maybe with jul tomorrow night?

btw, jul's blog is HERE! i want to do hotel 626 with her ;]!

anyway, ily jul and emm / you're amazing, the best, my sistersss. xx

BYEEE . comment plzz?

straight up fresh, yo.

hey, it's sammy. :]

okay, so, new blog. like it?

what do you want to see in this one?

what do ya like? hmmm? (:

anyway, i don't have much tuh say.

i will probably post more later. :D

[talktoyoulater!] ♥