teenage dreams in a teenage circus&;!

i wrote this back in my "emo" days. it was written on july 21, 2009, and has been in my ipod notes since then. it's pretty deep. the rest of the note has personal stuff (names, etc.) but this was the important part. hope it gives some insight.

and really.
i'd still love you.
but if this is where you're happy.
then stay.
i was never in the way.
but i could be.
i could be so in the way.
but love is just funny that way.
and thats what i cant stand.
love is like a bandaid.
and a cut at the same time.
you need it to heal you.
but its what hurt you.
in the first place.

bolded part is my favorite part. it's true. it's all true. gosh, that was a rough time for me. glad it's over, and my life is moving on.(:

you smile that beautiful smile & all the girls in the front row scream your name. ♥

tell me things like "i can't take my eyes off of you."

:]

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Joehawk is back and better than ever!
He is more gorgeous than ever. And I love him. ♥
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Superstar by T.Swizzle is quite obviously about him. It's amazing.

'Cuz she knows how I feel about Joe(:

Can I just say that Joe is amazing? Here's some 'Superstar' lyricsss.

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"You played in bars, you play guitar

And I'm invisible and everyone knows who you are

And you'll never see, you sing me to sleep

Every night from the radio"

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"Give me a photograph to hang on my wall

Superstar"

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"This is wrong but

I can't help but feel like

There ain't nothin' more out there"

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"I'm no one special,

just another wide-eyed girl

Who's desperately in love with you"

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xoxo,

Sambam Jonas. ♥

can we stop going in circles? •

oh heeey, neglected blog(:

how's it goinggg?

no one comments this crap anywaay.

hahahah !

sooo , how about yall just twitter me or something?

@mhm_jonas !

OR AIM / YAHOO MEEE.

haahah, ask.fer.it. (:

sooo byee !

i'll come back when people commennttt .

or when i know what too sayy!

don't tell anyone by the jonas brothers is lovvve. :]

kkkk baayyy. >:3

i'm gonna put you first, i'll show you what you're worth. ♥

^one less lonely girll. it makes me cry HARD.

i'm crying while i write this. this song has a lot of meaning to me.

the jonas brothers having turned me into one less lonely girl.

and i'm not even lying. they put me first.

they showed me what i'm worth. it's amazing, to be honest.

there was this one guy that really hurt me.

but the jonas brothers really picked me up. and they just, i dont know.

they made me happy. they made me smile and laugh. :]

every morning i listen to them. it makes me feel good. beyond good.

you may not understand. i can understand how you DON'T understand.

you will never understand. no one ever will.

no JB fan will ever understand how another feels.

and non-JB fans DEFINITELY won't understand.

but in my heart, i know how i feel. and it feels like nothing i have ever felt.

i will never marry a jonas, but it doesn't matter.

i will have them in eternity. and for now;

i have them with me ALL THE TIME.

in my heart, in my mind, and all around me.

and i will never again be a lonely girl. ♥

you know she's dancing at the disco.

samantha atrophy/sambam jonas. ♥

heyyy, loves. i redid my blog a bitt. i love it. me&liv are scene noww. i love olivia annihilate. :] hehe. so. i just wanted to post. to say. that. my life is amazing. i loove my friends, family, etc. and the jonas brothers. ermm. my birfffday is comin' up. october 13th. better be gettin' IAT.

and YEAAAH !that's it, yo.

xoxo, samantha atrophy.

ps; jb is gangsturr. :D

i hear it every day, i hear it all the time.

selly's album is loveeee. (:

today was dang funn. i love my friends!

they know me SOOO well! honestly.

they see one jonas thing and then...

"SAMMMMYYY!"

lmao. gotta ♥ bff's.

so excited for mahh birfffday.

my friends are gonna put JB pix on my locker. :}

and demi, selena and justin bieber.

but mostly jonas. GOD, I LOVE MY BFF;S!

so yeah! i've been happy lately.

got sel's album. workin' on a hecka amazing project!

i can put jonas in it. (:

so thats excitin'. :D

&thats it yoooo .

BTW.

i love jonas secrets on facebook.

but they were hating on mandy!

NOT COOOOOL.

i love hur. :]

SO COMMENT, BBZ. ♥