a sea of eyes that cut through me.

and i saw you in the middle.♥

hi there, my little blog buddies. no one really posts on here anymore but i just wanted to type(: so i'm sitting here. that picture above is part of my wallll. i know, it's gorgeous ! haha. anyway. i'm sitting here listening to jonas(: && omg. i cannot wait till this summer! jonas concert. i need them to announce touuurdaaates, pronto![:

when i go to that concert, i'm gonna scream "i love you kevin" reallllly loud so that he hears. it won't even matter if i'm on the balcony. he'll hear me, i know it(:

i love my life. i just thought i'd shaare. kso, jonas is the best!

ell oh, ell oh, ell oh, ell oh vee ee.

heyyy, it's sam, and i'm jammin'.

current obsession is 5AWESOMEGAYS ♥ omfg, i love those boyss . check 'em out on youtube if you've never seen them! theyre toooo cute and funny. joe & tylerrr & korey & johnee & michael. they make my week. :]

kaay, done with that.

anyway, my blog has been extremely dead lately so i might renovate. i'm just in that kinda moooood. so today i didnt do much, my friend stopped by for an hour or so but that was it. i've just been watching youtube for awhile and chillaxin. i'm having a shizz hair day x]]

i need to make more pointful posts. maybe after the renovation. byee. (":

i pray that something picks me up, & sets me down in your warm arms.

Hi, I'm Sam. I'm twelve years old, seventh grade, love family & friends. I need the Jonas Brothers; they're amazing. Music makes me happy(: I love this boyyyy, it's whatever; but not really. Pizza is my favorite food everrr, blue is my fave color. I like to cry when it's neccessary, or just when I feel sad. I love taking pictures, they help me to remember. I don't want to forget stuff. I think I'm in love constantly, but I'm not; just puppy love. I'm one to stare, which is weird, but ehh. I have big feet. I love seeing movies with my daddy. I'm the odd one. I'm really deep. Boys always make me smile. I'm good at saving money. Some people say I'm quiet, but only when there's nothing to say. I love to speak my mind, to be heard, to make good points. I will get realllly loud if you get to know me. I love quoting lyrics. My favorite features of myself are my eyes, hair, and smile. I like to write, get it all out. I love love love love love school. I like to speak other languages. Son las siete y diez de la noche. (: If you smile at me, I'll be happy for awhilee, 'cuz smiles rock. I'm a Libra, so go read a description of a Libra. It's like reading into my soul ;D! And really, I just want someone to love me for who I am. [[you go, nick j!]]

Maybe you didn't know me. That's me, though.

when you look me in the eyes♥

^i get reallly happy. ☺

sorry, i'm in a lovey mood. <33333
but you make me insane, in the best way possible.
i think about you waay too much.
i relive the moments way too often.
but it's so worth the cost of my sanity, haha. (:
the thing is, for the past year or so, i have been depressed.
well, it stopped on july 27, 2009. the day JB saved me♥
then, i got much better[; and then...
maybe early november i realized something.
i really really liked this guy.
now every time i talk to him, i get happy.
no one talks to me like that.
you know, he makes me feel special.
i wish he knew, but he doesn't.
he's up there in the list of top guys ever(:
along with ...
Joseph Adam Jonas, Nicholas Jerry Jonas, Paul Kevin Jonas II,
James Tiberius Yorke, Gavin "Spinner" Mason, Toby Isaacs.
oh and how could i forget...
Craig Manning<3
you know, and he's somewhere in that mixx.
so basically, i want to talk to him wayy more than i do.
maybe it'll happen.
thanks for being there for me.
you just don't know it, but you are amazing. <3

there's more to life, than just to live.*

hi readers; happy thanksgiving. i have something to share(:

we are all so lucky to be on this earth. God has sent us down from Heaven, our true home, because we were strong enough to make it through this lifee. it's our choice whether we want to use that strength or not. you may not have the best life, but if you're toughing it out and still alive, then you're okay. you're living this life. that's what God wanted us to do. to live life to the fullest, or at least live as best you can. there's so much to look forward to... friends, family, love, everything. i'm so grateful. i love my life so much. i love my school, and the amazing people i have classes with. that school is just great;& i feel like our team is a family. i would not change my life at all, because i know that God is looking over the ones i love and i, and he's got a plan for our lives. that plan is like a road; we can take the great plan God gives us, or we can rebel. today, i am choosing to take His path. i know that God has made this world as a gift. we are His creation. i just realized all of this. God has given me this life that is so magnificent, and so much less troubled than some people's lives. some people have to live on the streets, with no food or warmth. but He has given me food, shelter, love, and everything else needed to have a good life. all i can hope now is that all the people who deserve a great life have one. thank you, God, for giving me the best gift of all... the gift of life.

because i'm crazy for yooou. (:

"oh look! it's sam." "you mean that weirdo?" "yeah, and now she has a megacrush on some guy!" "whoaaa, obsession!" "hahaha iknowright." "she's a freakadeak." "fo rizz."

so as you can seee, i have an insanely huge crush on this guy. i don;t know how to flirt but i just have to try. my best friend is trying to help me but ehh. i'm too subtle for herrrr. BUT OMG I LOVE SCHOOL. i get to see him & that excites me. no one has ever made me love school. this must be a sign xD. HE;SSOCUUTE. ♥ aagh. (: today... he LOOKED at me. *gasp* yeah ikr! likee, 3 times?!!? OHH BOY. i almost passed outt. he's just that cuteeeee. but we've only talked, like, once :[ *sadface* idk how/when to talk to him but i sure do like him a lot. and that's all.

AND I'LL WAIT FOR HIM TO COME, HE WON'T BREAK MY HEART, CUZ I KNOW HE'LL BE FROM... WAIT, NOT AUSTRALIA. hhahahaa.

xoxo peacepeace word to yo motha whatwhat;

sambam jonas. [:

teenage dreams in a teenage circus&;!

i wrote this back in my "emo" days. it was written on july 21, 2009, and has been in my ipod notes since then. it's pretty deep. the rest of the note has personal stuff (names, etc.) but this was the important part. hope it gives some insight.

and really.
i'd still love you.
but if this is where you're happy.
then stay.
i was never in the way.
but i could be.
i could be so in the way.
but love is just funny that way.
and thats what i cant stand.
love is like a bandaid.
and a cut at the same time.
you need it to heal you.
but its what hurt you.
in the first place.

bolded part is my favorite part. it's true. it's all true. gosh, that was a rough time for me. glad it's over, and my life is moving on.(: