i will not disappoint youu, i will be right there for you.

sometimes i feel like nothing is ever good enough.
&i'm happy and upset at the same time.
lately something extremely stupid has troubled me.
okay, we all know i just became a jonas brothers fan.
and the problem is the JUST BECAME part. D:
i feel like i missed out on all the good JB times.
i love all of their old songs. i don't love as many of the newer ones.
i miss them being young. i'm sorry. this makes me looks like a bad fan.
but really, some people grew up liking them or whatever.
i grew up with them, just not liking them. ):
i think they were a part of my childhood. & ARE a part.
AND OH MY FREAKING GOD!
i just have to say something;;
i was 2 songs late! kids of the future is on the last 10 songs on radio disney.
AND I MISSED IT. ]:
oh welll. blah. so i really want to go jonas crazy.
but it makes me feel like a bad fan 'cuz it's been 3 weeks.
i did/am growing up with these boys.
i guess it really is better late than never.
just, you know, things would be so different.
or maybe if i liked them back then...
i wouldn't be liking them now. i don't know how to feel.
because i love them sooo much. maybe i've secretly loved them the whole time.
i think i have. because i was too embarassed to like them before.
now i don't really care. who cares what music i like!?
you know what, it's about the music.
I JUST WANT THE JOEHAWWKKK~
): joehawk plz. or at least the joe straight hair. haha.
you know what? i really do love those boys.
it's just hard to be like 'oh yeah i've liked them for, uh, 3 weeks... heh.'
other people can be like '3 WEEKS?! i've been a fan for 3 years.'
D:
i'm sorry. i may cry. can someone reassure me?!?!?!?!
i'm just afraid i missed the jonas brothers 'peak' or whatever.
no one's obsessed with them in my school anymore.
so maybe they've peaked. &i missed it.
&I FAIL FOR EVEN THINKING THAT.
i need therapy. because i think everything is just horrible.
D:< this sucks. i should be happy. but because i'm so emo [xD], i can't accept anything. i guess we all have to become a fan sometime. ): i came a little too late. just a little. i'm gonna buy every jonas cd out there. i think. haha. i have to stop focusing on the old music. just listen to more new music. & old. a big mixture. i just want a baby bottle pop & joe jonas to hold me. i love him, i wish i was his agee. (: no, i'm in love with himmm. srsly. i'd take of them. nicholas, joseph, kevin, even franklin. :] but i really want joe. i want josephhh. or at least to be his friend. he could sing me songs. gosh, he's magical. wow, i feel better. joe just does that to me. he makes me happy.
:D ♥